Well I thought I’d share the lilacs before they completely leave my memory for the season; all that’s left outside are skimpy handfuls of blossoms clinging to the dried stems.
Isn’t that the way? One day, the lilacs are in full bloom; the next day, they have folded. Today, I am scrubbing grubby hand prints off the walls; tomorrow, those hands will find work outside of growing up and leave my walls clean. I need to remember to kiss the palms of those hands whilst I can.
Sometimes I remember to pause in the time that I’m in to really see what is blooming in front of me, between washing dishes and checking homework and stuffing bills into envelopes. Maybe if I did that more often in this season…maybe when the fragrance of memory catches me at odd moments later in life…maybe the remembrance and scent will be satisfying and comforting to my heart. Perhaps. Otherwise, in my rush to (fill in the daily blanks), I’m afraid I may miss the bloom completely. And regrets smell rank, not redolent.
Childhood and lilacs: fleeting. Stop and enjoy the bouquets.
I’m very much enjoying art journaling, beginner that I am. It’s a definite stretcher for me to break from using just words to dump my brain and to try to (literally) draw it out. Although, it’s funny, I still filled up the page with words! I was thinking about how I needed to guard my heart, to be its keeper, to stop being dependent on people or my circumstances and to just care better for me. And then I started thinking about what I really needed, and came up with a list. This is from my sketch book. Can you relate to any of these needs?
I decided to put it all onto a little canvas, something I could display somewhere and look at it and remind myself. I forget pretty easily! I love the birds, one in a cage and one without. Every word and drawing or stamp carries a meaning for me, and helps to provoke meditation and prayer. This was a fun project to do with my girls, too; they made their own pictures and have proudly displayed them where they, too, can see them every day. We used acrylic paints, stamps, and mod podge for the words. I’m looking forward to doing more of this sort of art journaling!